Let's see...

I'm just going to make a list. I like lists.

1. KJYGSKD My laptop blew up, I can't update my 365 blog, and that really pisses me off.

2. Both Yanbo and Eusden have incompatible schedules, not to mention I really hope they get to meet each other now, partially because I feel like they probably won't meet each other again, as Yanbo will be out of my life or Eusden will be out of my life. 2 year relationship versus 6 year friendship. I wonder which will win. HM I WONDER.

3. Which leads me to the whole, what the gjsdkghsdkghsd is happening with Yanbo and I? Why am I suddenly feeling so bleh about him? I mean, I'm honestly glad that he doesn't give me money because I hate the idea, but on the other end it's once again something else he completely just forgot or just doesn't remember and just doesn't care and it's the reason we broke up and he's back to the way he was again and I'm SO SICK AND TIRED OF IT. I'm not being unreasonable, he's not making a freaking effort for anything. Also, he lies a lot, even though he swears he doesn't. I don't like being lied to, and believe it or not I have a freaking uncanny sense of when someone is lying to me.

4. I'm bored at home. I want to go out. But who exactly am I supposed to hang out with? I'm not sure what to do with Ashley anymore, Daphne can't go out anyway. I don't really have that many close girl friends, never really did, and now I feel like some of them just haven't matured nad it's weird. I think Angela and I would get along fine still, but she's in Taiwan and she won't be back for two yeas.

5. School is the only thing going fine for me. Which is really stupid considering that school is usually the thing never working out for me.

6. The computer I was using just freaking froze and I lost the post I was working on. LSDGHSDKLGHSKDJHGSKLDJGHSKDLGHDLKSGHDS

WHAT. THE. HECK.

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So ... this is my ranting blog, I suppose. Or more private blog. Or not my 365 blog.

Class is great. Studying... eh. Must.. focus. I think away from my laptop would be a big plus.

NOW. Real rant.


Tired of being the one to make the first move. Is it really that much to ask for the guy to be the man?
After dinner.. if it even goes through... I think I'll just stop, cut my losses, and prepare for a breakup. He's not showing me that he wants me at all... which is fine? I mean, I don't care if you don't want me, but don't make me waste my time on you. Gives me more time to get over you and move on with my life.


When I truly love my partner, I will put him first in all regards. This is not to say I make my choices based on him and I make choices that will be negative should it not work out. This does, mean, however, I will do my best to ensure that he knows I love him and am thinking of a future with him. Is that really that weird?

People these days. Idiot, & I'm one, too.

My last spring quarter omg!

There are some men out there who will always make your heart race when they look at you. There's something about the way they smile that drive you wild.

&it's only the first day of break but I already miss my boyfriend.

Hello.

Questions... I have.